Sometimes I get caught up in all the things that I haven’t done, things I long to do but can’t, and mistakes I’ve made, pain I have had. It can be a miserable, downward spiral!
The other night I was having a similar session when I couldn’t sleep. I finally decided to grab my calendar (where I keep everything) and left the room.
As I walked out, wondering what I wanted to do, the thought came to brainstorm what I would do in my life right now if anything were possible and nothing was holding me back. Hmmm, interesting idea.
So, I started a list. Pretty soon I had a good-size list going, over a dozen items. Most were not costly as that is not what my life is all about. Many of them had to do with developing closeness with family and friends.
When I’d written everything I could think of, while contemplating what to do next, it occurred to me that I am doing some good things already. So, next to my list I started a list of things I am doing well right now.
I started with simple tasks – keep up the laundry on Saturdays, keep up pretty well with the dishes – doing them when I have a load in the dishwasher, etc. Then I moved on to more varied topics – doing well at my job, reading the scriptures almost every day, attend Church every Sunday, connecting with extended family, etc.
I started feeling pretty good about my life. It helped to realize that I am accomplishing more than I give myself credit for, even though I’m not doing everything I can picture.
And, suddenly, I started looking at that first list a little differently. If I do this thing a little bit differently, or tweak that a smidgen, look at what I might be able to start doing now after all! Wow, this is starting to be a little exciting!
Taking stock of where I really am, instead of just feeling completely overwhelmed and under appreciated, opens up a whole new realm of possibilities!
Talk about a good day, and being able to get some sleep again! 🙂